A breath of celebration
Writing in my morning pages this morning was an exercise of me wrestling uncomfortably with novel issues of form and point of view and those damned myths which haunt me but REFUSE to get into their rightful spaces...
Then I took a breath, stopped and stared at the passionate squiggle of my words on the page. One question after another--all reminding me that I am a beginner, that I am confused, that not-knowing can be damned unpleasant.
But last year, when I started this blog, the big questions were COULD I write? WAS I ever going to be a writer? Now, the questions have shifted to specifics--about craft, about characters and themes, and scheduling and time and tired fingers. Somewhere along the way, the distant, misty goal became a daily, present reality. Frustrating, but like with the Madam, SO much better than what came before that I can barely contain it.
The earlier questions about WILL I? CAN I? have been answered. I will, and I can, and I AM.
Then I took a breath, stopped and stared at the passionate squiggle of my words on the page. One question after another--all reminding me that I am a beginner, that I am confused, that not-knowing can be damned unpleasant.
But last year, when I started this blog, the big questions were COULD I write? WAS I ever going to be a writer? Now, the questions have shifted to specifics--about craft, about characters and themes, and scheduling and time and tired fingers. Somewhere along the way, the distant, misty goal became a daily, present reality. Frustrating, but like with the Madam, SO much better than what came before that I can barely contain it.
The earlier questions about WILL I? CAN I? have been answered. I will, and I can, and I AM.
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posted by Anonymous at 2:37 PM
22 Comments:
my reaction to reading this post was, "huzzah!" :-) (that's sort of a hip, hip, hooray in case that's not clear.)
It is wonderful to read that you are affirming yourself as a writer.
I truly enjoy your words and am glad that you write!
I love the confidence in this post.
This made me feel so good! For me, and for you!
YES!!! I love this post.
Yay for you!
Writers write!
You are a writer!
So am I!!
We ROCK!!!
Well done for the positive affirmations. Keep them up
Yes! You did, you are and you can. You rock!
Hi Mardou...wonderful you!
I never thought you once a beginner...not from the smooth deft way you construct your posts as a writer and I still remember having 2 pieces of your fiction here - I commented on those - they read like they had been crafted by a skilled writer.
You can and you will. As you tackle your novel for instance, you will feel a surreal sense of it taking you on a completely different journey and that strange knowledge that your book is growing. You will literally feel it happening, if you haven't already. :-)
So great to hear that!! I've been so grateful to go through the same transformation in the last few years; to realize I CAN and move on to the next part, the doing. Yay for you!
Yay! Your living the dream girlfriend -you rock!
i have looooooved your writing for so long. i'm glad that you have answered these questions for yourself.
these words are EXHILARATING!!! oh, i love the image of you making this realization! i'm celebrating with you! :)
Wishing you and your family a happy and blessed Easter
Hip Hip Hurray! Feel all chuffed-to-bits and happy for you :-)
Just reading this post made me feel that all Is possible, and renewed my optimism. Thanks!
Happy Easter, Lizzi
Bravo! This is exactly right. It's so important to take the time to regularly acknowledge how far you've come. (I am speaking, also, to myself here. This post has been a much-needed reminder for me.)
You ARE!!
and you are inspiring me with your
perfect outlook - inwards.
hugs!
( i am off to print this out and put on my
magnet board)
the happy dance of words - you ARE a writer, a STRONG writer, without question. there are so many times i visit your blog and find myself completely blown away ... so much so, in fact, that i can't even begin to formulate suitable comments. please know that i am among your visitors and your fans.
peace.
Your words are so refreshing today. All of the confidence and positive thinking feels good to me today, so thank you. I needed that :-)
Good for you!!
I went and listend to Anne Lamott speak this week. I wish you could have heard her talk about how HARD it was for her to write...ANYthing! She really made me laugh, and feel tons better about myself. lol!
Just write. You are meant to!
;)
WHOOO HOO! What an empowering and wonderful post! Yay. :)
You go for it girl!!!!
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